Don's sister asked my WHY? She is still having a real hard time with Don's death. I think that she is having a harder time than I am. She posed the thought that maybe it is because of my faith. I KNOW it is because of my faith....faith in Jehovah's promise pf a resurrection and faith in Don's integrity to the end. I was so proud of him. Courage in the certain face of death...and who concerns him? Me and the people who he loved and loved him in return. Does it get any more unselfish. I know he did not want to die. I know he fought it with all his being. Yet he accepted the inevitable and counseled me and the rest of the family how to carry on after he died.
I see his picture on the Blog and my heart smiles and breaks at the same time. How could that be? I have many, many more sweet memories of Don than I have of the other sort. He was imperfect and was not always patient and kind through the years. He occasionally repeated a saying that a high school teacher taught him.
Patience is a virtue
Possess it if you can
It is seldom found in a woman
And never found in a man.
We had an ongoing discussion on that poem. I think the writer of that poem was a man who wanted an excuse for his impatience. I sited Jehovah and Jesus as examples of patience. Certainly a goal that is not entirely out of our reach. Don was an honest, humble person and worked on his shortcomings... overcoming a quick temper and trying to be more mild and kind. While he didn't succeed entirely on his endeavors, he really did exceptionally good. He learned to be a public speaker and teacher which was major for him because he was somewhat introverted at times.
I entitled this blog WHY because I wanted to explain that my faith is based on solid footing...the Bible. So much that was taught to me growing up was correct but there were glaring errors. A deep study of the Bible helped me to see things from Jehovah's viewpoint. Any one of Jehovah's Witnesses could explain these differences and back their thoughts with Bible verses. This faith strengthened us (Don and I) to look forward to seeing each other again in the future ON THE EARTH. If anyone wants to know more, I will show them what our faith is based on.
I have had a glitch this last week. My heart was in AFib and I spent the day and night at the emergency room. The home monitor recorded what had happened so the doctor changed my medication so I could be in better control. I think my heart went in AFib because I drank several cups of caffinated coffee on Sunday. I didn't realize that it was not decaff. So I am back in sinus (normal) rhythm and going through the transition period of adjusting to my new meds.
I am touched that so many want me to keep posting on my blog and so I will do so. My family and friends have been so supportive that I am really humbled by the continuous outpouring of love and concern....never too much, Anna.
I'll try to update this blog at least once a week. One thing that I am pleased with is that a rose from one of Don's flower arrangements seems to be doing well in the yard. My mother called it a "slip" Does anyone else remember somebody in their family doing this? It was a common thing for my mother to try to grow things and to start rose bushes from a cutting.
All of you have a nice day/week. All my love Barb
